⸻
Things take time. That is the first truth I wish you to hold fast to, for in time even the crookedness of our thoughts may be straightened by the hand of God.
••I confess to you, I was not always so assured. Only two years ago I trembled in the uncertainty of belief, and the road ahead seemed hidden in fog. Yet now I find myself walking with a firmness I had once mocked in others. What changed was not the world, nor the words of men, but the quiet insistence of God who led me forward without fail.
In childhood I mistook the gathering of knowledge for wisdom. The more information I devoured, the more arrogant I became. I looked at Christians as though they all shared in the same concealed weakness I feared within myself: a need to pretend, to cling to belief as one clings to a raft in storm-waters. I told myself that no rational soul could ever rest on faith. Thus I deceived myself twice// once in my pride, and once in my contempt for others.
You have perhaps heard it said that those who hold to God do so only by lying to themselves, blind to reality. This I believed too. But such a thought withers when faced with the one Reality that cannot be denied. For God is not a proposition to be weighed but the ground beneath all measures. He is not a refuge for the weak but the strength that makes men steadfast.
I write this to you not as a disputant but as a fellow traveler. The truth does not demand that we invent consolations; it reveals itself as grace. And once you have met grace, you do not reason with it, you do not bargain with it//you are changed by it.
Therefore, if you find yourself doubting, do not despair. Things take time, and God’s patience is longer than your rebellion. In following the truth, I have learned that assurance is not self-made but given. Receive it, and you will see that divine strength is not a dream we tell ourselves at night but a waking reality, more certain than your breath.
•camdss
∆Remember Us∆ 