{Dear Redacted}
Haha, really? It was early when you posted this, seems as though your demons already have you put to work ? Needy bunch, aren’t they, ? always demanding overtime.
Perfect for me though. I have the afternoon wide open and my books from last night are still open to this exact subject. Real books, Timm. Paper you can cut your finger on, not a reel that’s gone in three swipes. Lol. You love to talk about learning so let’s Talk about Learning.
You actually touched something profound here with this today, but you left it dangling all by itself, stripped of every other Truth that would give it real weight. We could connect the dots if you wanted, but I’m not convinced you do.
Feels more like you’re auditioning for the role of Fool again, tagging Christians first thing Wednesday just to derail the worship, it’s your whole vibe apparently brotha. Those demons keep you grinding late, huh? Haha. They’ve let your ignorance grow roots and now it’s spreading through your spirit like a virus, splitting you right down the middle until you can’t even feel Whole anymore.
I was that divided man once Too, and in many ways I still am, as we all are born unworthy. I took one smug sip of the Natural Sciences, and Theology or maybe even more so like you have just done, I took one dusty pagan quote and thought I’d graduated past God. Lol. Ignorance is Bliss evolved. As it Turns out He’s only ever at the Bottom of the Cup. Keep drinking, brother. That edge in your comment today is pure thirst, the kind that’s already crying out for Jesus even while your mouth argues. My words last week (or was it the week before) apparently cut straight to the heart your mind still refuses to admit.
I’m not here to argue or dunk on you. What are you even trying to prove, and to who? Me? Or the guy you’re really mad at in the mirror? That talk belongs inside, not sprayed across a feed tagging God-loving people before coffee.
My confidence isn’t arrogance. It’s just earned. Years of real work, lived questions, actual sources. And none of it is mine to hoard. Everything I have is Borrowed. Funny you bring up the Greek corpus like it’s your trump card. That fire’s been in me forever. Socrates alone could keep me locked in for months. Plotinus? I know the whole ascent cold. The Old Gods, every pantheon that stood before Abraham breathed, I love them too. I probably know your gods better than you do. Not saying it to flex, saying it because I’m trying to reach you: stop telling me how to learn and Look inward. That’s the pattern screaming loudest here.
Maybe you’re rattled because my love for Christ is so complete it doesn’t leave space for your favorite contradictions. That rattle is exactly what the Devil wants, to sell a man the lie that Unity is weakness and Division is strength.
Timm, My God does not Divide. People do. Paul knew it, the same Paul who carried the Gospel across the empire after they killed Jesus. I’ve walked his routes in the actual records. Christianity didn’t erase the Greek world. It swallowed it, baptized it, turned Rome into the Catholic heart. I’m not blind to one inch of it. It all fascinates me because it all points straight Home.
Your whole routine looks like a backwards hunt for God through rebellion. I pray Clarity slams into you hard enough to break the pride open. I pray tribulation finally makes you Whole again, seen only through the Eyes of the Lord.
Stubbornness and arrogance will leave you leading nothing and no one if Grace doesn’t grab you first. Real Faith loves the test because the Resolve has to be crystal clear or the whole thing collapses into absurdity. Attention is the stabilizing force. Whatever you fix your gaze on is what you Will into existence. Drift from Christ’s Principles of Goodness and the material world gets warped, tangled, sick. You keep playing Contrarian, slicing everything apart, hoping the performance finally gets you the acceptance your heart is begging for. But True Strength isn’t in semantics. It’s in Communion.
If anything I said ever shamed you, I’m sorry. That was never the intent. I see the pattern because I lived it. When I see it in someone else I have to hold the mirror. The Gospel is Universal. I just wanted you to taste the fruit too.
And about that video, “learn what?” You rode in on the tallest horse in town. These subjects aren’t hobbies for me. They’re blood and calling. I did the years in the actual sources, hours spent in libraries in search of scholars who gave their lives to this, watched theology get hammered out because souls are on the line here Timm, and to me it is that important. Maybe you chose the right person to condescend after all haha.
Spent another hour reaching across the gap in attempt to articulate the frustration you have called forth from within. This may be good news for the future You. Haha. I will not be doing this again and I actually have nothing else I want to say to you Friend. I Hope something lands. One day we’ll finish this talk in the eternal Now, Jesus in the room, Holy Spirit doing the translating. They call it Heaven as I’ve heard. And Christ in, and through Focus, can be Found there. †�Keep going, Timm. The Water is Living. Drink it fully.
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