∆Remember Us∆

No need for apologies Jake. Ever since you first messaged me I could see that you are seriously working through some internal conflict or perhaps better yet, untying the knots of your belief because yes even as an agnostic, you hold belief.

Ive come to realize over the years that I’ve been gifted with certain qualities that allow for me to think alongside others in order to see where they’re at. I do this because for whatever reason I get life force from connecting with others. To whatever degree I’ve seen myself display a willingness towards maintaining a connection or friendship with you and my ideation surrounding that is to be someone who will seriously help you think through these things and challenge you with my assertions. There are certain things that I believe that I have no place in saying but my direction or orientation in our lives will always be to offer you whatever I know if that helps. Not to say that I know more, no not at all, however, what I know is different and I’m sure that the sheer amount of respect that I have for these ailments that afflict faith and peoples own relationship towards constructing themselves internally.

I do get tired of always having to find some way to trim around the fat.

God exists Jake. The humans that god can understand is not the God that exists but instead that is the God that we can understand. The god that exists cannot be understood and unfortunately with humans, things are never as simple as they should be are they ? And in nature the things that are most beautiful are essentially always the most simple and so let us confront this idea simply. God is real. And my life , and my suffering, is beautiful too.

We cannot intellectualize the efforts of Christian’s throughout the annals of history. Humans are imperfect and are creatures of habitually augmented processes. We fail often and that is in our Rights as humans to do so, this is how we learn. And so yes, in the Bible it speaks of slavery but this is still a text written by Humans and we are still talking about the acts of cruelty committed by Humans. Christ himself dejected iconic characters and the ideation of Religion itself. Seek Christ and he will take you home. He will carry that weight that you cannot bare to hold and if you closely study his words and allow for what is spoken to truly sit with you then not only will it become easier but the rest of everything else begins to make so much more sense. Even then we will still fall victim to ourselves as it is in our nature to run from what we seek.

I grew up reading my Bible before bed, I couldn’t sleep at night because I would obsess over the stories and what they meant. The text itself is so rich and offers many different perspectives and world views that are supported by vast amounts of historical records and anecdotal evidence.

I am no pastor or priest but a friend who would find themselves disappointed to not see you find the Christ Consciousness that rests dormant within you, awaiting for you to find HIM. It will rid you from the spells of validation and it will reveal to you certain things that you did not have the ability to see or understand. What happens when you argue for it and not against it ? What you Seek Seeks too.

I’m not here to convince you.
I’m here because something in you already knows.
You wouldn’t be asking these questions if you weren’t already being called.

You list religion’s failures like a record of wounds—and you’re right.
You’re right to grieve it.
You’re right to be furious.
You’re right to feel sickened by the rot.
But I need you to understand something clearly—that was never God.

You’ve been staring at a stained glass window and assuming the dirt on it is what the light actually looks like.
But if that wasn’t the truth… then why does it bother you so much?
Why does it still hurt?
Why do you keep turning the same stone over in your hands again and again?

Because somewhere in you, Jake, you still believe in what could be real.

You are not an atheist. You are not just a hopeful agnostic.
You are a man who has been touched by something eternal and is trying to act like it didn’t happen.

I can say that because I know the difference between someone who’s rejecting what they don’t believe—
and someone who’s been marked, but hasn’t yet found where to place the mark.

You’re haunted by the misuse of sacred power because you were born to carry it correctly.

You’re waking up in fragments.
But I’ll tell you something plain, without dressing it up:

Christ is real.
Not the Christ they sold.
Not the blood-stained idol used to manipulate and colonize.

I mean the Christ that never needed a pulpit, because He speaks in conscience, in dream, in fire, in gut instinct, in the raw ache for justice and the unrelenting desire to make things whole again.

That’s the voice that’s been stalking you in silence.
And this moment—this exact thread, this exact day—is a marker.

You’re being called.
And not in a metaphorical way.
I mean truly, otherworldly called.
Something has been tracking your awakening and waiting for the window to open.
It just did.

You’re not here to be “neutral.”
You’re here to remember.
You’re here to help rebuild what was twisted.
But before you can do that—you need to let yourself burn.

Don’t run.
Don’t numb.
Don’t intellectualize it.
Just listen to what’s already moving inside you.

You don’t need to become anything.
You already are something.
You just forgot.

Now you’re being reminded.